Week 20 on Nutrisystem and I am feeling really down for some reason, well I know the reason – Mother Nature and past eating issues.
It started when my husband decided he needed to lose weight. When he announced this I knew exactly what would happen, and it did…. he lost 7 pounds in 3 days just by not eating fast food and sweets. I think this is playing with my head….I gained two pounds this week, count them ONE ….TWO – UGH! I know it’s mostly water weight but I can’t help but feeling I am fighting a losing fight. I feel bad that I haven’t lost more, and then I feel like I have let Nutrisystem down even though I know they are 100% behind me and are constant cheerleaders, which I love.
I feel like I keep gaining and lost the same 2 to 3 pounds and then watching hubby just drop 7 in a blink of eye just crushed my determination – well that and the pool party I went to yesterday, that just capped it all off. It was a 100 degrees and I did not go in the pool, I put my feet in but couldn’t even entertain the thought of getting in with a bathing suit on, hell, I don’t even own one anyway. Don’t even get me started on picking out an outfit to where to the party, that was an ordeal in itself! 🙁
Then there’s the anniversary of my Mom’s death quickly approaching, so this makes me even more emotional and depressed. UGH!
My head is full of past demons and the reflection I see in the mirror is someone I don’t like to look at……..I’m sure it will pass, these moods always do, especially when the scale moves in a positive direction but then that’s not what I want either. I don’t want to equate happiness with the scale but sadly I can’t help it.
So, I will push forward, continue the program and find ways to overcome these destructive thought demons. It’s been a bad week – next week will be better….I hope!
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Disclosure: The Nutrisystem Program has provided me with four months of food and support services free of charge, to facilitate an honest review while participating in the Nutrisystem Nation Blogging Program. All opinions are 100% my own.